The importance of the word I !

Within the past couple of months the words "I" and "me" have become particularly important as I take the first steps into becoming my very own person, a person who makes their own decisions without second guessing and a person who in fact thinks for themselves, on their very own two feet.
This blog comes at a time of mixed emotions. I have just withdrawn myself out of my French oral exam (a retake)... Something which I haven't wanted to do since it was suggested. I went with my teachers though thinking that they had my best interest at heart... But I've learnt that your own decisions should never be dependent on others. You have to be selfish at times, even if it means disappointing and hurting people. I do not see the point in putting yourself through stressful situations when there's no need. My best friend just sent me a text including these lyrics...

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

This made me think... think that I am actually extremely lucky to have such things as Health Kinesiology to occupy my mind and keep me smiling... even when I truly do feel like hitting my head on a brick wall... hard!
Back to the point of this blog... I have probably said before the importance of being selfish at times in life but it's one of those times again. I have always done things to please others, do what is expected of me, which is why I have done what I have done, stood up for myself and how I feel.

In the words of my darling Mother "centre yourself, breath and then say f*** it!"

Have a wonderful week all, as I am sure I will.

Love always

L x

Decisions and passion.

I have just watched “An Education”… what a film! Along with that and my HK I had last Wednesday I have realised what fabulous decisions I have made. My HK session was in fact absolutely incredible last week, like reallyyy incredible. You know those times when you question yourself all of the time and think that everyone around you is being so negative about what you are doing? I had to get that sorted out… my wonderful Kinesiologist said I would truly feel the benefits in six days which would make that Tuesday but I feel rather good right now and if this feeling greatens then… wow! Health Kinesiology has been in my life for almost two years now so has played such a major part in this chapter so I hope it plays an even bigger part in the next… and I’m pretty sure it will! My French is something which I thought I would always do and always be working at it yet it feels good to be taking a break from it. I can remember when I was having a rather dull moment with it last October and rang my Kinesiologist feeling dreadful and useless and I said to her “French is me, it’s what makes me… me and I have to do it” However looking back on that day I rang her up, I had not spent a single second on French but what I had done was spent over half an hour explaining Health Kinesiology to the women in the office and trying to persuade them to come to a talk my Kinesiologist was doing… it did work, but they had prior arrangements so couldn’t make it. Then the night I went to the talk for me was the night everything changed and probably the night all the confusion began. Was I… Lydia Rose Gilroy… going to leave behind French so I could practice in Holistic Therapies? Yes… yes, I was and I am. I can’t help it. When I heard my Kinesiologist talking about some of her case studies my heart beat increased and the smile grew wider and wider on my face and I could feel myself changing within that very moment. I can remember coming home and just crying, crying out of passion, crying out for this thing which at that point a year previously I didn’t know anything about. It’s surprising what can happen when just one person is introduced into your life, don’t you think? Just that one person out of billions and billions can make the one change you didn’t know you needed… but you did. Though I refuse to say French is something I have left behind or given up on as it’s something that is still permanently on my mind, just there, whirling about, I have no control over it… You don’t control passion though, it seems to just happen. All I can say right now is... This is all very exciting. I have never felt so excited and thrilled in my life about the prospects of what lays ahead.