A whole load of maybe's...

I am still awaiting the surge of joy from my HK session, which was a week ago but feels like a lifetime ago. It made me go to some really deep places. Within that space of a week I’ve lost control and forgot what decisions I’ve made and what I have and haven’t done. Maybe I’m finally relaxing a little? Going with the flow? I’m used to delving deep into my own mind but right now, I’m happy skimming the surface and I’ll trust whatever’s happening, it’s a bizarre feeling. I feel as though I’m missing something but in the long run, this may prove to be a good thing and I can dive straight into those deeper thoughts only when absolutely necessary. Maybe it’s just come to the point where I just need to have complete trust and self belief in everything I’m doing, stop over thinking and over analysing and go with whatever my intuition tells me. It may be best. My body is telling me right at this very moment that I need to sit and complete all my schoolwork, but I’m ignoring it for some unknown reason, maybe because I don’t want to make the effort. However my body knows what’s best for me, my body keeps telling me that I need to boost up my water intake again and I know this due to the familiar dry sensation I’m so used to in my mouth.
I’m also being told that I really need to get away for a while, I need to set my feet upon a French street, within a boulangerie, a patisserie, chocolaterie and explore the quaint and quirky things I love so much about that country. Maybe I will get there and realise it’s not for me, however I would be rather surprised if that did it happen. I feel as though it’s more likely that I’ll end up staying there because I’m so happy. My mum said to me a couple of months ago “You go to France, be happy” and I don’t think she realises the effect it had on me.
If you skim the surface of thoughts in your mind, you’re more likely to explore and experience in life, where as you delve too deep and your mind becomes this mousetrap of what ifs and what could have been. I know it’s time to let go now, maybe I’ll be more proactive with everything.
Something inside told me to quit my job as it would be for the best, that's what I did.

L x