Well, "brand new" is just what I feel at the moment so I have been giving everything a re-boot and starting over with many a things.
I have to thank Darling Stephanie for this lovely brand new title. It fits perfectly as this is exactly how I feel. For the past 2 years I've felt as though I was starting new chapters at various points. However, I feel as though this IS my final first chapter, as I feel this is the beginning of the rest of my life.
I hope to now base this blog on all things holistic and about wellbeing; Health Kinesiology, Aromatherapy, Massage etc etc etc. This new chapter will truly kick off when I start my Complementary Therapies degree in September and I hope that through this blog you will be able to follow my growth as a person and developing my knowledge and skills.
I AM SO BLOOMING EXCITED.
Love,
L x
P.s. I hope you've all been drinking enough water!
P.p.s The clocks go forward an hour tonight!
Monday, 29 March 2010
Saturday, 20 March 2010
Well well well....
I am following my intuition once and for all.
This little voice is something I need to put my complete trust into. If not, well I will be quite simply buggered and know I will end up in a rut if I don't listen to it.
Soooo... This is what it has told me and what I have now decided. I am in fact dropping my French A2 course and instead, completely concentrating on resitting my French AS exam. Once I had come to this conclusion, I felt a weight being lifted off my shoulders. With this, I am able to follow my dreams. I have realised, to speak French I DO NOT need a piece of paper with a grade on. As long as I am able to communicate in French well, then I'll be happy... and this can be done by spending a year in France I believe. I am fed up of going to the lessons and feeling as though it is in fact, killing all my passions, I do not want to be spoon fed words and phrases to use, I would much rather be out there exploring, so much more exciting, don't you think?! France is and always will be my first love. Yet this just isn't right.
What am I doing then you ask? Well, I am having my gap year then I will go to UNIVERSITY but it will be to do something practical and something which allows me to help people... Complementary Therapies. Thinking about this, my heart races and I know it is the right choice.
I just hope people are going to support me in these decisions.
Have a lovely weekend all.
L x
This little voice is something I need to put my complete trust into. If not, well I will be quite simply buggered and know I will end up in a rut if I don't listen to it.
Soooo... This is what it has told me and what I have now decided. I am in fact dropping my French A2 course and instead, completely concentrating on resitting my French AS exam. Once I had come to this conclusion, I felt a weight being lifted off my shoulders. With this, I am able to follow my dreams. I have realised, to speak French I DO NOT need a piece of paper with a grade on. As long as I am able to communicate in French well, then I'll be happy... and this can be done by spending a year in France I believe. I am fed up of going to the lessons and feeling as though it is in fact, killing all my passions, I do not want to be spoon fed words and phrases to use, I would much rather be out there exploring, so much more exciting, don't you think?! France is and always will be my first love. Yet this just isn't right.
What am I doing then you ask? Well, I am having my gap year then I will go to UNIVERSITY but it will be to do something practical and something which allows me to help people... Complementary Therapies. Thinking about this, my heart races and I know it is the right choice.
I just hope people are going to support me in these decisions.
Have a lovely weekend all.
L x
Thursday, 11 March 2010
It hurts.
I don't know about all of you other beings out there but every single day something hurts me, yet not necessarily in a horrible way.
For me... I can look at my Health Kinesiology book, flick through the pages, read some case studies... that hurts me. Why? Because I want it so much it hurts, I want to absorb it all so I have the tools at my fingertips, ready to go. I have this strange, permanent weight on my chest and I'm glad to have figured out what it is. It's because I'm strapped down, I'm going by other people's rules when that just isn't me. I like to be free to do as I please, and to know that soon I shall have that freedom to do as I please is rather exhilarating... just have to get through the next few months then freedom is mine.
The other day, someone said to me "you have a secure future ahead of you, it doesn't matter what you get this year does it? You've put the work in so just let it fall into place." I know letting it fall into place would mean me getting BCC or something in my A Levels and then I think... do I honestly care? Do I honestly care about some petty grades when in a few years time I could have the tools of Kinesiology, Aromatherapy or Massage at my fingertips so I am able to help people day in and day out? Right now, I'm learning... "what will be, will be". I do believe it's important to have a good education but isn't that what life is about? Learning? "You learn something new every day". Why should one cram all their learning and practice in to four years of University? Surely it is more exciting to be learning for the rest of your life... non? ... I don't think that made much sense but oh well, hopefully you shall get the jist of it.
Another thing that hurts is the learning of French. The fact that I know that I will disappoint people this year... or I feel as though I will but what I do know is that in a years time I could quite easily be fluent and shall be able to forget the disppointment and feel proud. That's the thing when you're a practical person. Exams don't come easy. Immersing yourself does.
I don't really know the meaning of this blog. But I would just like you all to think... is there something in life which when you think about, it hurts? Something dying to be released inside of you? If yes, then please go with it, who wants a life of pain?
Love always,
L x
P.s. If Miss Miller reads this then I am going to promise you something, if by the age of 35 you have not yet scooted yourself off to Italy with a type writer in hand to write that novel... then I will take you there myself.
For me... I can look at my Health Kinesiology book, flick through the pages, read some case studies... that hurts me. Why? Because I want it so much it hurts, I want to absorb it all so I have the tools at my fingertips, ready to go. I have this strange, permanent weight on my chest and I'm glad to have figured out what it is. It's because I'm strapped down, I'm going by other people's rules when that just isn't me. I like to be free to do as I please, and to know that soon I shall have that freedom to do as I please is rather exhilarating... just have to get through the next few months then freedom is mine.
The other day, someone said to me "you have a secure future ahead of you, it doesn't matter what you get this year does it? You've put the work in so just let it fall into place." I know letting it fall into place would mean me getting BCC or something in my A Levels and then I think... do I honestly care? Do I honestly care about some petty grades when in a few years time I could have the tools of Kinesiology, Aromatherapy or Massage at my fingertips so I am able to help people day in and day out? Right now, I'm learning... "what will be, will be". I do believe it's important to have a good education but isn't that what life is about? Learning? "You learn something new every day". Why should one cram all their learning and practice in to four years of University? Surely it is more exciting to be learning for the rest of your life... non? ... I don't think that made much sense but oh well, hopefully you shall get the jist of it.
Another thing that hurts is the learning of French. The fact that I know that I will disappoint people this year... or I feel as though I will but what I do know is that in a years time I could quite easily be fluent and shall be able to forget the disppointment and feel proud. That's the thing when you're a practical person. Exams don't come easy. Immersing yourself does.
I don't really know the meaning of this blog. But I would just like you all to think... is there something in life which when you think about, it hurts? Something dying to be released inside of you? If yes, then please go with it, who wants a life of pain?
Love always,
L x
P.s. If Miss Miller reads this then I am going to promise you something, if by the age of 35 you have not yet scooted yourself off to Italy with a type writer in hand to write that novel... then I will take you there myself.
Friday, 5 March 2010
Proactive.
My word of the week and what I seem to have become in the past seven days. I’m thinking that the Health Kinesiology I had just over three weeks ago is seriously kicking in. Take today for example, I got in from my French tuition, grabbed a cup of tea and a pint of water, went straight to my room, sat at my desk, got out my work and just started! Rather than the usual of watching a bit of television with some cake and a cup of tea then on to my laptop for some facebook-ing. Then after about five minutes of doing ACTUAL WORK I suddenly thought to myself “What am I DOOIING?! Where on earth has this come from?! I’ve never done this in my life!” As usually I’m one of those last minute people who have to get stressed to the point of tears before I actually start my work, which I know for a fact is well… rather unhealthy mentally and probably what knocks me out of balance the majority of the time. It’s made me think though; I’ve never been a proactive person, not homework-wise though. When it comes to organisation… well that’s a completely different matter, the opposite side of the spectrum entirely… which means that I in the past two weeks have on four occasions sat, at eleven o’clock in the evening, organising my work into ring binders; diving the work firstly by teachers then topics. I love it when things are neatly organised and I don’t have to scramble my way through plastic wallets packed full of sheets… in no order at all. It’s the little bit of OCD inside me, that’s for sure.
It’s times like these when I get to sit down after doing my work, relax and listen to some music (a sort of meditation for me) and just think… think about what I’ve done and what I’ve achieved in the past two years of my life and well, how much Health Kinesiology has changed me for the better; I’m happier… yet still have my moody moments (as we all do) but it doesn’t matter because I know I can get back on that bike and carry on going when I’ve got it out of my system, I’m more organised, I’m living… that may sound strange but you know when you have those moments where you just feel as though you simply exist and nothing else, well now I live and feel for every single second… what a feeling.
I may be proactive yet I am still a daydreamer through and through, I go to my room to do work, however I then find myself sat at my window, just staring out into the world and I just allow my mind to do whatever it wants. I think we all need to be proactive. BUT there are times when you need to do just that, sit and allow your mind to do the work and usually whatever it comes up with will be something glorious and fabulous and without a doubt, will make a smile suddenly appear on your face without you even realising, something which the child within you secretly wants, being care free and for that moment you can be you and you alone, on your own. Isolating yourself for a few minutes each day can be the most rewarding, relaxing and lovely thing.
Thankfully it's Friday, so have a wonderful weekend all!
Love,
L x
It’s times like these when I get to sit down after doing my work, relax and listen to some music (a sort of meditation for me) and just think… think about what I’ve done and what I’ve achieved in the past two years of my life and well, how much Health Kinesiology has changed me for the better; I’m happier… yet still have my moody moments (as we all do) but it doesn’t matter because I know I can get back on that bike and carry on going when I’ve got it out of my system, I’m more organised, I’m living… that may sound strange but you know when you have those moments where you just feel as though you simply exist and nothing else, well now I live and feel for every single second… what a feeling.
I may be proactive yet I am still a daydreamer through and through, I go to my room to do work, however I then find myself sat at my window, just staring out into the world and I just allow my mind to do whatever it wants. I think we all need to be proactive. BUT there are times when you need to do just that, sit and allow your mind to do the work and usually whatever it comes up with will be something glorious and fabulous and without a doubt, will make a smile suddenly appear on your face without you even realising, something which the child within you secretly wants, being care free and for that moment you can be you and you alone, on your own. Isolating yourself for a few minutes each day can be the most rewarding, relaxing and lovely thing.
Thankfully it's Friday, so have a wonderful weekend all!
Love,
L x
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