Maison.

I can't wait for this.

Also can't wait to start at Sheffield and get this degree as I've decided I'm off to Paris afterwards. Sorted.

Walk of Life.

This song, by Dire Straits, I have decided... is my favourite song of all time. I requested it to be the last song at my 18th birthday party, for personal reasons, the day before we had buried my wonderful grandmother, 2 days before that I had turned 18 and it all made sense. I hadn't told my Dad about this, so when the DJ announced this was the last song of the night and the instant that that first note was played my Dad and I turned to each other both with tears in our ears and we danced, we danced like absolute crazy, he knew why I had chosen it and it's a moment I will never forget in my life, being their with my mum, dad, brother and sister and the rest of my family, dancing, celebrating and also grieving at the same time... a bizarre feeling but an utterly wonderful moment of understanding..

A Right Royal Occasion

A true loves kiss...




and a truly stylish exit....




What a romantic, joyful day and a marvellous day to be British.
Congratulations to William and Kate.


Hope you all celebrate in just as much style as the newly-weds..


L x

The seaside & home.

In all honesty, it is rather lovely living right by the seaside and by "right by" I mean like a 5-10 minutes walk which is awesome as I have spent my whole life up to now living in the county of Derbyshire which is furthest away from sea than any other county... at first there was something quite magical about the sea, a relaxing, calming quality. But now, it just reminds me of being stressed out and upset which is a shame really. I have only been back here for ... well, not even 2 days and I'm ready for home, to be with my family. Some may call me quite immature and a baby... I'm sure, but I'm very much independent and mature, I can just see that what I have got is the most amazing thing in the whole entire world at home. A family who I can be 100% myself with; rude (dirty minded - I get this trait from my gran!!), cheeky, immature, mardy, funny, stupid, giddy, mature, honest and grateful.. and that is something very special... we can argue, dance together, play fight, have deep conversations, it's a wonderful family life, we all have so much respect for each other, we're the best of friends. I am so very lucky.
Now I have 5 weeks left here, and I've been told to make the most of it... I'm going to try..

Wedding Invitation

Not my usual post but all things fashion related are keeping my mind of certain things.
THIS is what I want to wear to my cousins wedding! Go bare feet for the evening though as the evening do is on the cricket field and there will be plenty of dancing!!

Oh Topshop, you're wonderful.

L x

Je ne sais pas.

I am hating the fact the thought of University and going back to Falmouth has made me feel how I did BEFORE my HK. It's horrible, I so wish I didn't have to go back.
I also wish I wasn't doing such a shamble of a degree at such a shambles of a University, but I have no idea what I want to do so I suppose something is better than nothing.
It all comes round to the fact that I still cannot comprehend how adults, who were once themselves 18 year-olds, expect young people to know what they want to do with their lives, to have a plan, a path set out for themselves. I have no idea, my mind changes so often, I like changing it up no matter how much confusion it lands me in, because if I keep on changing then I don't have to think about one particular path for too long.
I just wish there was one particular thing about me, something which I can do that stood out like a sore thumb... Except the fact I am a people person, there is nothing... I enjoy many things, I am passionate about a variety of my interests and different subjects...
I have no idea where I'm going to be in 10 years time... I just hope to have travelled, to have loved and to have laughed.

Apologies for my whole lot of moaning recently..

L x

Love

I have the most perfect, beautiful, adorable and intelligent god daughter in the whole entire world, I love her so much, it's crazy. She's walking and talking and being her blonde hair blue eyed self and it's wonderful to watch her change and become this little real human being with her own personality.
I could cry. Wow.

L x

Ciao!

I told you I would be back sooner than last time!
Well... I just thought I was in the blogging frame of mind this evening. The sky is a hazy blue and the rich sunlight is casting shadows from the trees in the field opposite my house and the cows are munching on the grass.... I love my little view from this window.
I think I need to talk about home, I always said that I would never be able to call Darley Dale my home, after moving back here from 5 years in Nottingham, and it's quite a bizarre feeling to be finally at one with my home. I have a week and a few days left here before going back down south for the last few weeks and I know that as soon as I arrive at Falmouth station time will drag until I can come home. I've realised that it's people which makes a place your home, all the people you love, and I couldn't ask for more here.
I just wonder why it has taken me moving 250 miles away to realise this. Yes, I have the seaside down there but I miss the rolling hills and the cities ...and people here.
Once again, it's after a HK appointment that all of this comes to my mind, clarity is absolutely golden. I now see my thoughts in the dark light and the sun light of which they present themselves under in my little head. If only I could have done this before... but no regrets here, what has happened has happened...and I am so happy of the 2 1/2 years of HK I've had and will keep on having.
I am thinking that the fact that I have come to the realisation that I actually have no idea what I want to do in the future is probably another reason for my moving back here as it gives me a form of stability, even if I don't have it in certain aspects in my life, I know it will always be there with my family. For a fair few years I have done various circles, wanting to be an artist, and interior designer, an architect, a teacher,a therapist (this one still remains in my head) and many other things...when they were obviously all a mask for my uncertainty.

I think I have got too deep here but oh well,

Enjoy this stunning evening all,

L x

Stranger

Hello! Well, I thought it was about time I started on this blog again, as it's very special to me..
I'm at home at the moment, it's just glorious, even trips to Sainsburys are thrilling and my little walks I go on, I've missed greatly. I've missed a lot, and every time I come home I realise just how much I miss, not only my house and family but it' the familiarality, seeing friendly faces. The main problem in Cornwall is the people it's missing... up here, I have so many people who I can just talk to and open up to with complete ease.
It's also lacking in a certain Kinesiologist who once again came to the rescue a couple of days ago... I had such a powerful session, even though a felt completely knocked out, immediately after I was full of this positiveness that's been absent in the last couple of months. I'm not feeling on top of the world just yet, but that's due to the thought of 6 more weeks in Falmouth... I'll get my head around the fact it's only SIX weeks... I know it will all be absolutely fine in the end!
Anyhow, the sun is shining and the garden is calling my name..
So I will love you and leave you and be back to write hopefully sooner this time..
L x