Proactive.

My word of the week and what I seem to have become in the past seven days. I’m thinking that the Health Kinesiology I had just over three weeks ago is seriously kicking in. Take today for example, I got in from my French tuition, grabbed a cup of tea and a pint of water, went straight to my room, sat at my desk, got out my work and just started! Rather than the usual of watching a bit of television with some cake and a cup of tea then on to my laptop for some facebook-ing. Then after about five minutes of doing ACTUAL WORK I suddenly thought to myself “What am I DOOIING?! Where on earth has this come from?! I’ve never done this in my life!” As usually I’m one of those last minute people who have to get stressed to the point of tears before I actually start my work, which I know for a fact is well… rather unhealthy mentally and probably what knocks me out of balance the majority of the time. It’s made me think though; I’ve never been a proactive person, not homework-wise though. When it comes to organisation… well that’s a completely different matter, the opposite side of the spectrum entirely… which means that I in the past two weeks have on four occasions sat, at eleven o’clock in the evening, organising my work into ring binders; diving the work firstly by teachers then topics. I love it when things are neatly organised and I don’t have to scramble my way through plastic wallets packed full of sheets… in no order at all. It’s the little bit of OCD inside me, that’s for sure.
It’s times like these when I get to sit down after doing my work, relax and listen to some music (a sort of meditation for me) and just think… think about what I’ve done and what I’ve achieved in the past two years of my life and well, how much Health Kinesiology has changed me for the better; I’m happier… yet still have my moody moments (as we all do) but it doesn’t matter because I know I can get back on that bike and carry on going when I’ve got it out of my system, I’m more organised, I’m living… that may sound strange but you know when you have those moments where you just feel as though you simply exist and nothing else, well now I live and feel for every single second… what a feeling.
I may be proactive yet I am still a daydreamer through and through, I go to my room to do work, however I then find myself sat at my window, just staring out into the world and I just allow my mind to do whatever it wants. I think we all need to be proactive. BUT there are times when you need to do just that, sit and allow your mind to do the work and usually whatever it comes up with will be something glorious and fabulous and without a doubt, will make a smile suddenly appear on your face without you even realising, something which the child within you secretly wants, being care free and for that moment you can be you and you alone, on your own. Isolating yourself for a few minutes each day can be the most rewarding, relaxing and lovely thing.

Thankfully it's Friday, so have a wonderful weekend all!

Love,
L x